Looking for a reason...

Even though I know I have a purpose, a reason, its the time waiting inbetween that sometimes really gets to me. Just found one of my old Michael W. Smith CD's "Go West Young Man" and listen to "My Place in this world" man, just got me thinking of how so many of us have a yearning to do something.

The waiting and seeking out part sometimes doesn't feel enough. Why doesn't it feel enough? Could it be a lack of faith? Laziness? impatience? or the fact that waiting isn't anything of "action" or moving forward.

Its funny though, because at the same time, I know what I'm suppose to do and what needs to be done. However, I don't want to do it that way, I want to do that some other way (my way) where you can atleast see some fruit from your work.

However, fruit from my own doing can only last no more than just a moment, then it will die and not reproduce. That could be my problem, thinking that some other alternative is better, and knowing that it will lead me in circles and leave me nowhere.

I want to see vision, I want to dream dreams and fullfill God's purpose in my life and do them with His blessing. Why do I think that the way that I think is better (and faster) than the path that He has already set before me?

Man...why can't I let it sink in...and get it from my head and into my heart.

Anyways... here are the lyrics:

The wind is moving
But I am standing still
A life of pages
Waiting to be filled
A heart that’s hopeful
A head that’s full of dreams
But this becoming
Is harder than it seems
Feels like i’m
Chorus:
Looking for a reason
Roaming through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world

If there are millions
Down on their knees
Among the many
Can you still hear me
Hear me asking
Where do I belong
Is there a vision
That I can call my own
Show me i’m...